raya

oh my oh my, it has been ages since the last time i've updated my blog. my life has been pretty hectic these days, blame the lembaran; lebaran; lembaran; geez i didn't know which one is the right word but i think it's lebaran. i've been raya-ing for five days in a row- and i'm exhausted. for this year's raya, hahahahaha i wore a black and white kebaya. for the first time, and i like the kebaya- a lot. but it tensed me up since i couldn't eat the dishes that i like since, whenever i exhaled the air out of my lung, the button will popped open and it's tiring me up. for this raya, our family's theme is black and white. haha, since mak's side call both mak and abah pak itam and mak itam, of course we have to be the black family.

this year's raya is the best. haha, the reason why i called it's the best raya is because our families went to both malacca and johor. for the first time babe, i went to johor. malacca has a lot of werid places' names. like bukit katil, bebam and so on. malacca is weird. oh and we've bought a dslr camera and it satisfies us a lot since we can take almost thousand pictures, it's so great. we took a lot of pictures. these are the pictures, but i'm way too lazy to resize the picture. :D

family in black, tkde keje.

mind us, haha we love to jump on the beach.

i found it is hard to pump the cup onto my face. they said it's freaking easy!

this little boy, haha tengok lah mcm mane die tuang air.

ahhh afif, hahaa arra nak comel je. :D

on hiatus

younger.

the fact about my pasts, buahaha many people are envy of me.

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that girl's actually me. see, i didn't tell you a lie right? i was a good friend of his in my dream, and it happens in real. that girl's actually me. my face looked different in the picture was probably because i have grown up. it was two or three years ago. look at his face, geez ungelly hair. he has a baby skin when he was younger. you wish to send him your regards? don't worry, i'll send it for you. (:

he is my favourite.

jayy*

it's yeon

so, heads up. i saw a video- a fancam of both jay and wooyoung. wooyoung said be strong in korean, which i do not understand what he's saying since i do not speak korean but most of people kept on saying, wooyoung's saying be strong to jay when jay lifts his head. omg, that was cute. haha, of course it was touching and sad to watch, but i like jay. it was stated- they were doing the last performance for incheon festival what so ever but- some of people said it wasn't the performance but what do i care? what i care is, i like jay. hohoho.

it has been ages since the last time i checked on my accounts. it has been ages since the last time i updated my story, buahaha i feel sorry for my readers. i did not know why but i do not think i have the mood to update my story and day by day, it seems like i have lost ideas to continue with them. day by day, i able to get rid the matters of jay out of my mind. my emotion has not overtaken me any longer, but i have to say that i miss him. moreover, i do not really miss him like before since i have dreamed of him- smiling at me. buahaha, the dream was good. really good, i really like that kind of dream. it was simple, yet cute. was it cute? well yeah, he was cute- not me. how on earth am i supposed to know whether i was cute in my dream or not? the vision was the same like usual, it was me who saw everything- i could not see my face. ahhh i find it is hard for me to explain the whole situation right now.

ohhhh since i have nothing to say, let me share a story about rats. ughhhh, yesterday i watched travel and living's channel- a program which i do not know what the title of the program is but what i know it was about a female traveler who traveled to india. the most disgusting thing was when she visited the temple in india, the temple which had a lot of rats. RATS. oh my god, that was so oh disgusting! mind if i tell you, it's the custom or shall i say it is a must for the visitors, occupants or so whatever to take off their shoes before they enter the temple. i was like, what the heck? take off the shoes? that means they will step on the shits that had been released by those rats. ughhh and those kids, really like to have rats running around them. i did not know why. there were these two girls, they were sitting and there was a rat sitting in between of them, and these two girls who i did not know what type of word that is suitable for me to describe both of them were smiling and proud to have a rat sitting in between of them. uuuurrr even though someone's willing to pay me a million, i would never enter the dirty temple. yuuckeeer, they said those rats are holy.

why did i keep on talking about rats? i really hate rats. jay park i miss you. muahaha, i really miss jay and i wonder, what he's doing in seattle right now. ohhh and i'm waiting for the hot blood to be uploaded, including she might come back's song. since people said there's a connection between that song and jay, i want to try to listen to it. i wonder if it will be another drugs from 2pm to me. their 2nd album kept on talking about a girl who had left them. first, they talked about a girl who did not know on how to appreciate them, even though they want to leave her, but it was hard for them to do so. second, they decided to hate her- ohhh what i mean is they totally hate her and, they wanted her to come back to their worlds and be their girls for another time? i do not understand what they want, actually. and lastly, they said she might come back. ughhh related songs compacted in an album. i was anticipating for their third albums, but i did not know whether it will come out or not since- ughhh their solo activities even get hiatus. i did not know what jyp is doing and planning right now. netizens are crazy, if they did not bring up the small matter, all of these fusses will not be happening.

edited- muahaha i have listened to that song, well that song's kinda good but i wonder, why did the title said she might come back when the lyric goes- i do not know whether you will come back. ahhh that was confusing, what i like the most- muahaha there are a lot of jay's parts. his voice is sexy. i more prefer for him to sing than rap, i didn't know why. maybe it's because of his voice is seductive? hahahaha, yeah i guess so. oh and my yeon-na, haha he raps really well. yeon-na, i love you but i love jay more than i feel towards you, i didn't know why. i miss him a lot, i am so sorry. *like you will read this huh?*

yeon-na 's

walk to the park

so yesterday, it wasn't yesterday actually. it's couple of days before, i dreamed of him. it wasn't that so oh romantic and so on- it was simple. i dreamed of him, a guy who i missed a lot for now. haha, not that much but i kinda miss him and guess what, his name is jay park or other names that you would rather to call him. my dream was simple, but too complicated and packed- to me. it was because of there were too many of artistes in my dream which i could not remember their names, what i know most of them were guy and most of them treated me very bad. it seems like they did not want to talk to me. at first, he didn't appear in my dream yet, so i wasn't that excited.

i was talking to two guys which have kinda same name, ki bum and kim bum. you're confused right? okay, fine then i was talking to them and both them kept on ignoring me so i was fed up. i got up from my seat and walked towards the kitchen, and guess what? i was a good friend of his in my dream babe. i walked towards him and i said, hey what are you doing? and, without bothering himself to turn his face towards my face, he simply smiled while saying, "i'm doing this for her." mind if i tell you, he was baking bread pudding at that time. geez, he's so cute in my dream. i asked him something but unfortunately, my sister woke my up because it's the time to sahur and i was like, nana period lah! haih, if she didn't wake me up, i might ended up laughing with him in my dream. the reason why i tried my very best to continue with my sleep and tried to continue with my dream was because of, that's the only way i've got a chance to see him smiling. i swear to god, he's smiling when he replied to my question. jay park, what are you doing right now? and do not tell me that you're baking bread pudding for her which i do not even know who she is.

bread loves pudding.

gay

you've already left, they even said you're a former- i couldn't believe that.

the cupid said sorry, should she be forgiven or not?

some of people said, yes she should be forgiven. and some of people, or i guess the majority said SO FUCKEN NOT!

i completely understand that most of them, or should i say almost all of the fans/supporters of ONEDAY are mad and upset with the heartbreaking news about the leader of 2pm. me, as one of the fans of 2pm of course are feeling upset and unhappy with this issue as for me, stating koreans are gay is not a big deal. gay itself has various meanings as people can use it for stating how happy they are, or to show the annoyance that they felt deep inside of their hearts to someone (which i believe this was the reason why jay said koreans are gay) and gay itself can means homosexual.

people who are not major and not really master in english (assume koreans are these people) will directly interpret what gay means by saying it's a bad and harsh word. for people who are common in english (assume jay and his friends are these people) will understand that gay doesn't mean that you're homosexual by interpreting it hundred percently like what most people will mean by saying this word. GAY, i can say to everyone HYE EVERYONE I'M GAY TODAY! and will people say YOU IDIOT! as a respond? by stating someone who tells people that he or she is happy on that day by using the gay word instead of happy is idiot, then you're actually reflecting the idiot word to yourself. gay has a lot of meaning. stating i am gay today is not a big deal and it's not grammatically wrong. you're the one who need to brush up your vocabulary. then, mind if i tell you who should i call idiot for now?

koreans are gay. most of people are mad like hell as jay wrote this comment to his american friends. i feel like i wanted to fly to korea and interview to all of the netizens, by what they understand about the meaning of gay. of course, what jay said was not right. the gay that he meant for now is, GAY- THE HOBO one but did they know how jay felt at that time? being a korean who was born in america and who's lack of the culture and language of his origin's. how tough will it be like when he go to korea in real? koreans are sarcastic. really. people talk in english at the subway, they'll look at them- hardly and harshly. what's their problem? really, if they're jealous because of they're not good in english then what's a big deal? attend and register to an english school and study your ass off and you can talk in english whenever and wherever you want. what's a big deal of that? koreans are gay, even though this line is not required for people to use, but for now i think this is the best line for me to use to show how koreans are being. they're gays.

some of the supporters of jay's are not willing to forgive the cupid. even though she has shown her guilt to everyone, some of them are not willing to forgive him. speaking of this matter, i do not think these people have the right whether they should forgive her or not. we have no choice, we had had to forgive her. if we ever made a decision not willing to forgive her, mind if i ask you- who are we to make a decision not to forgive her? are we god? no right, we don't have the right to make a statement that she shouldn't be forgiven. maybe what her doing was wrong, but at least she admits it. some of people didn't admit their mistakes, this girl or who i would rather call the cupid is brave as she has the courage on herself to apologize to everyone for her bad doing. people are so unbelievable these days. there are too many things happen in once. i miss jay, everyone miss jay. but don't being too over reacting. peace yo, i want to sleep.

shkjeebh

cusses

i think there's something wrong with people in korea. majority of them are not good in english and if they're jealous with a particular person who was born and have the natural skills in speaking and talking in english, what is their problem? there are still lots of mixed malaysians who seemed have no idea about the culture, language in malaysia but malaysians still did not bash these people. koreans are unbelievable, it was four years ago. four years ago, mind if i tell you how much will you get if you do the mathematical calculation 365x4 ? how many big numbers will you get?

anti-fans and netizens are unbelievable. f*cking unbelievable. i couldn't understand them. even though i am not a big fan of jay but i still did not hate him. i admit that i do not like snsd but do i ever asked or posted a comment stating that i wanted them to die, they're ugly and they shouldn't be artistes or what? anti-fans really should die. artistes have their lives too. watching the departure video of jay at incheon airport makes me feel bad. geez, with all of the screaming and crying fans- kept on saying kahjima. i did not know what to say and i could not find the right word to express my feeling. i am not saying that i feel bad for him as if he is one of my family members. i am not trying to over reacting right now, but what i know losing him will be a huge lost to everyone. i am not a member of HOTTESTS but i could know how they felt. anti-fans really should be taught on how to give a break to artistes. they're really stupid and do not have brains. past is past, what's a big deal of that? stating koreans are gay is a mistake but i do not think it's a big and huge mistake someone could ever commit. it can be forgiven and it's stupid and idiot for people who couldn't forgive jay as it's not them who will be deciding whether jay is suit and capable enough to be forgiven or not because it's all in god's hand.

geez i know this is not a right way for me to defend of him, especially when he is not a muslim. i know i know, this is not a right way for me. i know but what i know i do not want to be one of these idiots who did not know on how to use their brains that have been gifted by god properly. anti-fans are gay and all of the bad or obscene words that are existed in the dictionary. why do i have to care their feelings? they being like shits i can be one too. i know i have been cussing all the times for this update, but what can i do? i couldn't hide my disappointment to all of these stupid people. people make mistakes, and so are you. jerks are jerks and they will remain until the end, for these anti-fans i don't think jerk is the right word for them. i think idiot is the right word for them. you want to shoot me, shoot me but it won't change my hatred toward you.

shooosshh

muahaha

so- haha i was bored and i have nothing to do. i checked on soompi forums and guess what i have found? geez actually i have found these banners long time ago but i think this is the time i wanted to use it on my blog. buahahha, credit all of these superly gorgeous and hot banners to love.diary oh and these are not for take, what i mean for these are for me; these are for safiyah and these are for zuhur is actually, they are only for eyes' washing. haha, pencuci mate. entah ape lah.

these are for me; muahahahha

he is my ear's candy, haha mane ade.

i give 10 out of 10 points to you.

you know it right, he's hot. :D

these are for safiyah;

haha, this is cute. :D

no mandoo cheeks anymore. you don't have to diet you skinny!

these are for zuhur; buahaha

i know you like it, LOL just kidding.

this picture, geez i couldn't resist myself from saying that buck looks hot.

since you said that you started to like him- so, haha accept this.

the petition for jaebeom had reached its goal, and if i was not mistaken it have reached until 15,000? i don't know and koreans- geez just leave jaebeom alone. what do you want from him? koreans are gay, i don't think they want people to call them gay so please don't act like one. they always bring small matter up and burden other people. it's five years ago! chill dude. and what makes me feel koreans are mean was when they asked jaebeom to commit suicide. i was like, what the heck man! chill dude, seriously. stating koreans are gay doesn't mean you have the right to ask someone to commit suicide. who are you to ask that particular person to commit suicide? you're not god, people are so unbelievable these days. -.-" oh and i probably will go to school tomorrow, haha i didn't know why i bother myself to make a statement about my presence tomorrow. blalalalalala

Sheerrnnyy.

ailing

so today- i'm sick. geez, it's not today. i've caught flu, cold, cough and headache since the last tuesday. i thought it will only last for a day as the main cause of my illness was because of the cold weather. on wednesday, the temperature went down and i'm okay but the next morning my temperature raised high and it won't decrease until today. i want to go to school but because of the side effect of the flu's pill, i couldn't hold myself with the sleepiness. i really need to sleep. i hate the medicine for cough. it's damn yuckeer, arina looked at me with a 'makan-ubat-pun-susah' 's face. mind if i tell you this five year old girl really likes to eat medicines and i wonder why.

bleeeeh

it's A not B, haiyaa.

i feel like i'm a bat. why?

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well, i usually will sleep in the afternoon and will stay up till the morning. usually i will spend two or less or more, depends on my mood- i will online. but it depends, if my sister forgot to turn of the wi-fi, i will online. if she already did it, i will watch the tv. after two or less or more hours have ended, i will- well what can i do since my geography is really weak i will spend the rest of hours by reading geography's book. mind if i tell you zuhur and the others were afraid seeing me read the geog's book like a mad person, talking to herself. duhhh that's the way i read and memorized things. zuhur said i studied like hrm i didn't know what that girl's name is but what i know zuhur said i looked similar like her and i was like- i looked similar like her? mind if i tell you, the girl that i am talking about right now is a crybaby. :D she even cried in the toilet, but i didn't know whether it's true or not.

the pmr is around the corner and it gives me goosebumps when ckg salefah announces that the questions paper had arrived and they have been locked in the panic room. i was like- o m g!!!! geography and sejarah is like BUSHH BAMM BAMM to me. geez, i find it's really hard for me to get As for these two hardest subjects ever. most of people will say, that's because of you didn't read the book! i was like, bloody hell you said i read the books! maybe it's because of i didn't read the book with efforts, blame me. i really really wish, god will give me a chance to get straight As, i feel like i wanted to cry. geez but i'm not a crybaby. haha yelah tu well but i could practically said i am not a crybaby because it's been ages since the last time i cried for a thing. when was the last time i cried? the answer: the dinasour's year. buahaha, jangan percaya. i wish i could get straight As, and i prayed to god my other cousins who will sit for the examination will get straights As, including my friends. i wish everyone will get straight As as i know, it's everyone's dream. i totally could understand how madly they wanted to get straight As. waaaaa nak dpt straights As!

p/s: arra geo & sej susah en? jom baca! :D

geosej*

don't make me laugh

so- haha i like taeyang. :D

i guess every guy with name started with T are meant for me, LOL i'm just kidding. so- haha i watched a video of him which i did not know when the video was recorded but what i know, oh my god he sang don't wanna try by frankie J and his voice sounds great but, haha like what people said he sang an engrish song. i totally couldn't stop from grinning when he sang,

"crying begging both knees on the fro."

haha, sounds funny to me. oh and he even said;

"don't wanna try don't wanna try; cause all we do is fight and say the thing are hurt you bad to where we both begin to cry."

haha whereas the real lyric is;

"don't wanna try don't wanna try; cause all we do is fight and say the thing that hurt you bad to where we both begin to cry."

if you don't believe me, check this video out. oh and, i believe he find his tough time to pronounce the differently word, twisted tongue. geez, the first time i heard he sang this song i was like- this guy is so damn good and fluent in english but then- i guess my assumption was wrong then. haha but he still looks hot but what i hate about him; i don't like his pierced ears. ewwww especially in my girl mv, his ears look hideous and ugly. eee i feel like i wanted to cut his ears.

t*y

TC.

so- haha i like taecyeon.

T*c.