wedding dress.

omg, for real. ahh he kissed that girl on a wedding dress. i hate you- for real. anyway, haih i was planning to update to state that i have moved to tumblr. haha, here.

sam has sung me.

YES OH YES YAAAAHHHHHH. did you know that i have found out that the new phone of samsung corby- the phone that i have asked my father to buy me if i get flying colours for my pmr- is actually the phone that 2pm has been recording a cf for it? kyaa, i am so so so going to buy it. i've never thought that they'll advertise the phone. the phone is uberly cute, as it has loads of colours. but i wanted an orange one- hee. the pink one looks cute too but it would look weird if i use it. kyaa, i pray to god to give me flying colours please. these days, i always find my hard time to sleep as i always think of my result. i'm afraid of it, please let me get straight a's. anyway, this is the picture of samsung corby. this phone is really cute, hehe.

OMG

for god's sake, omg- hahahahaha who wouldn't like 2pm when they asked us to like them right? love 2pm, love hanami. of course i will love hanami too since the commercial was cute- really damn cute. and woo's still with his whining. anyway, i don't mind with all the fusses about wanting to boycott etc even though i still think it's a dumb move but, i will ignore everything and wait for the album to come out since for me, 2pm is still seven and nothing won't change that- until the time comes for a change. buaah what's with my sentence? i wanted to buy their mini album and single album- well if i have money. like what i said, 2pm is at the top of my heart and i wanted to buy the album in a way to prove what i said was true. ahh anyway, BB is getting boring nowadays. with their new songs, omg- seriously. it seems like yge artistes' songs are the same. try to hear bb, 2nei and secret- with all the computer program- autotune, huh. they're lack of ideas eh and i didn't know why they call teddy is the god of making good musics. i think his music is nothing special that could have led me to say ahhh he's the father/god of musics. ee i still hate fire and i don't care, i mean i don't like 2nei especially minji and cl- ugh wtv it is i have to admit that yg artistes thinks they're the best. wth, that's not true- well except taeyang since he looks humble. haha, mane ade. i'm so bias. HANAMI! YOU'RE DAMN GOOD FOR MAKING ME SMILE TODAY! AHHH, I LOVE SHRIMP!

it's enough.

fine, fine- i will accept the fact that jay is not coming back. fine, whatever. i'm tired already. like what the title of their first song- i'm tired of waiting and this time, i really meant it. i can't wait for any longer, how many times do you still need? it's heartbreaking to see the album cover, there were only six hands and i completely knew my retina is not damaged yet. the new picture, there were only six guys. where is the other one? maybe the picture's still in seattle. i'm tired and from now on, i will stop hoping. JAY, do whatever you want. i don't want to force and wait for you to come back anymore. i'm seriously tired. i think the best solution is to stop hoping for you to come back and continuing with my support to the other six guys. even though i really really miss and want you to come back, i still couldn't do anything about it right? i don't have such an ability to make it happens. if you want to come back, i will support you and the same sentence will be repeated again if you don't want to come back and proceed with your study in seattle. i wish you for the best ever luck. i don't want to be crazy, so i think i should wait for the long length version to be released tomorrow. i love you guys.

kiss.

actually, i've planned to post this long time ago- right after i watched the video. but, it's probably because of the big impact that had affected me, i couldn't force my fingers to type for a new post. haih, few days back i saw a video of taec who had kissed a girl- and it was his first on-screen kiss. i was like, please don't let him kiss please don't make it real but as a matter of fact, he did kiss the girl. ahh why'd he have to kiss that girl? i couldn't find any reasonable reason that could have led him to kiss that girl. eee. oh and- oh actually i didn't know what to say. anyway, i like his part in tired of waiting. so so so many of yells and his rap- you know i don't have to point it out right.

i'm tired too.

seriously, what is with the new song? ahh jyp, you really know how to make me feel depress and tension now. please, ahh please bring jay back and what is with the album cover? there were only six hands but you've divided 2pm's word into seven parts, what is with that? seriously, is the hand under junsu's was jay's? please, i really want it to be like that and i still could hear jay's voice. maybe you're trying to make us confused by releasing the techno version, i think it's techno uh wtv but i couldn't recognize their voices very well, especially junsu, junho and jay. people said they heard jay's voice, or was that because they've mind set their brains by thinking "ahhh this is jay's part", the thing is, i couldn't hear and recognize his voice under that music. please release the ballad version, same as the teaser. i bet i could recognize their voices. and please make a full statement whether jay is coming back or not. ahh, even though you might stop my heart by telling that jay is not going to come back- but at least i will be able to know the truth and i will stop hoping.

yes.

kyaaa, today i've got my blinkiess! yeay, i've waited for so long and finally- yuki has updated her thread. i was so so so so happy to see my blinkie. i didn't expect that yuki will make taec's blinkie as a picture blinkie. i did plan to request for a picture blinkie but i didn't tell her- ahhh i love you yuki. haha. stupid blogspot- it wouldn't allow the blinkie to move. look up okay!

even taec was surprised to see his face in a blinkie!

lee.

*close my eyes* KYAAA I'M NOT A PERVERT!

lee joon! aaahhhhh seriously, why are you so hot? with your abs- ahh you really know how to make me drool. it's been twice- i've seen both lee joon and AJ's abs and i seriously didn't know where i should hide my eyes.

taecjay is enough, where should i put leejoon?

skins.

today, the same thing has happened to me. i dreamed of him, again. i dreamed of, them- for the first time. i dreamed of nichkhun- and there was a skin contact between us. i'm so sorry zee, i didn't mean to. and i dreamed of g-d where he's such an asshole to me but we ended up as friends. i even asked him to change his hairstyle but he didn't want to, and we had skin contacts. :D and and, haha i caressed jonghyun's face, junsu's face, nichkhun's face and jonghun i guess. haha, i totally couldn't believe it. and did you guys know that when i caressed every single faces of them- we were in my bathroom because all of us were trying to take our wuduks. haha, my dream was weird. really.

what?

taec's spam.

so so so so so- i was the last one who stayed at zee's house. we both danced abracadbra and it's damn hard. haha, and muhammad kept on punching me and he's pissed off at me when he accidentally hit the wall. well it wasn't me who hit him though. -.-" and i really like the nasi ayam that was made by zuhur. haha like what she said, i believe her though.

btw, this is my current wallpaper. hahahahaha, janet's sexy for making this seductive wallie.


so today i've found loads of taec's picture and they are just like my candies. wohooo, now i have to hunt for more jay's sexy pictures and wooyoung too as i am planning to give them to supp as her upcoming birthday's present. haha, it'll be no surprise if she ever read this. here's some of taec's pictures. i want to tell zee that i do have taste for making taec as my favourite. first of all, we should get starting with this picture first; hahaahaha

he did look different, this was the first time i met him.

he bought a new camera, & we're sharing it.

he said the three magic words when i agreed to go out on a date with him.

he's daydreaming of me- while waiting for me to show up.

as a matter of fact- i didn't show up.

so he decided to come & see what i was doing.

but i said NO WAY & DO SOME YOGA.

so he yelled in disappointment.

the next day, he wanted me to come back to his world- & be his girl.

he kept on saying that, again & again.

so i pinched his cheek as a respond.

but he only stared at me, full of affection.

he tried to show me some magic, that he could lift the air.

soon after, he laughed as he knew he couldn't do it.

but he's kinda mad as i didn't give him any respond.

as a matter of fact, he decided to give up with his sulk syndrome.

he tried to find me- who's standing in the middle of the crowd.

but then he was stopped by some sexy policemen.

in the police station- he's starving & i brought him some food.

did you see what he wrote on his fingers? he said he loves me.

amiratu saleh, taec has officially declared that he is on a relationship with me. you can continue with your crushing on him, i wouldn't mind since i am a kind person but the thing is- i don't want to share him with you. you can get Ki since he's much younger to compare with Taec. hehehe, i'm so sorry if i sound like a bitch here- but it's the fact. well a guy even said that a kpopholic is a bitch, like me. -.-" so now, i want to meet him as i don't think it would be impossible for both of us to converse to each other since he is damn good in english. but yeah, he has the US accent and i am afraid he might doesn't understand my english. hohohohoho.

edited- both zee and syahid (my brother) showed me the same reaction from them "bapak lah perasan kau." hahahahahahaha, chill guys. this was just for fun, even though i wanted it to becomes true. haih, but it is okay- i will try to study hard and will try to further my study in Boston, meters away from his house. muahahahaha, then these scenes will becoming real. who knows? omg, perasan gila aku ni.

sherny loves beast.

give me some presents.

you're really good, did you know that?

okay, so- i have found out a new book- which people always said that book is damn good. the book is actually has written by the author for the young genre, like me. i really really want to read that book. the title of the book is thirteen reasons why by jay asher.

the synopsis of the story: Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a mysterious box with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers several cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker--his classmate and crush--who committed suicide two weeks earlier. On tape, Hannah explains that there are thirteen reasons why she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he'll find out how he made the list.

i found out about this book's existence from herlyn. who asked her to write a good damn story that has been inspired by jay asher right? god- even his first name is jay. people who have the name of jay always have got amazing talents. i've been searching for all over the internet, i mean- i've asked google where can i buy thirteen reasons why in malaysia? but damn there was no such article that's related to my question. i decided to open the mph website, but god damn it- it's under construction and how am i supposed to search the book? i've opened borders website but it seems it doesn't help me at all. i really want to read this book.

edited- oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah, i'm not singing mblaq's song now but did you know that i don't have to spend a penny in order to read this book? i mean my parents do have to pay the electricity's bill since i've downloaded this book. oh yeah oh yeah, even though i didn't get a chance to read this book by laying down on my bed or else, but it's okay. it's worth- i don't have to spend a penny. i almost click on the buy it now on ebay, damn it would cost hundreds! i love internet!

and, haiyaa i found a new book from the author of a walk to remember which i've forgotten what his name is. maybe i should check out in google- wait up. okay, i've found it and his name is nicholas spark. i found his new book, the last song and- by reading the synopsis i can tell that something bad's going to happen to the male character. but the thing is- the book is damn expensive. RM69.90, i'm not going to waste my money for this not too big and thick book. i can save almost RM70 to buy a new phone. hahaha, my father's saving his money now in order to buy me a new phone. deh- i just make my own assumption.

i want these two books!! ahhh, please please or just give me these two books as presents for my next year's birthday. haaaaaaa, i really want these two books! heh but i still haven't finished jodi picoult's books- i guess for almost 1,2,3,4,5 yeah another five books to go. well, it requires a lot of energy and patience to finish her books. her writing style is too advance- the words and lines make me dizzy sometimes but her books are nice. really, especially second glance but i didn't know why my sister said that book is not good. she even ditched that story by keeping herself busy by reading a place called here by cecilia ahern. okay so i think i really should stop babbling like an aunty.

thirteen reasons why i fell for you.

i feel special.

navi's heart dam(n)age is the best.

he's like a baby. hahahahah toshio's cream.

so i was- boring today, i woke up at *almost 1pm- yeah i slept like a cow and i've been sitting in front of the monitor for almost 7-8 hours. after i've performed my pray for the maghrib- i took a nap and that was when something shocked and surprised happened to me. well most of the fans- i mean all the fans have never watched the last episode of wild bunny but for me- it has happened at the other way. i've dreamed of the last episode and there were me, 2pm and zee. hahahahahaha, that was epic.

well i'm just way too lazy to contemplate and write down in here since i almost have used my saliva especially for zee when i called her just now. basically, both me and zee are good friends with 2pm but- haha the highlight of my dream was i had so many skin contacts with nichkhun which i haven't told zee yet since i'm afraid she might get pissed off. hehehe, but don't worry i don't have any special feeling towards him.

actually i had two dreams- the first one was i had a big argue with nuha- mak anjang's daughter. haha i'm too scared to post here since my cousin might read it and i might get killed. i also had a big argue with syafiqa, m.usu's daughter and i still remembered what i said to her, "awak tipu kita nnt awak fail pmr awak!" i'm so evil to say this line to here, ain't i? i'm so sorry syafiqa, this only happened in my dream. i always pray for you, don't worry. i'm not this cruel in the real life.

envy of me? sorry.

i ain't bias.

first of all, wooyoung has told me earlier that he does not approve for letting me to bias over someone as he said- his cheeks are priceless. he even said that i shouldn't be stupid for liking new chocolate abs and cherry lips- damn, wooyoung- don't make me feel guilty and stupid for liking AJ. haha, i have to run away otherwise i will get killed by supp. she's aggressive, you know. LOL.

the definition of bias- Bias is a term used to describe a tendency or preference towards a particular perspective, ideology or result, especially when the tendency interferes with the ability to be impartial, unprejudiced, or objective. In other words, bias is generally seen as 'one-sided'.

currently listening to BIG BANG's lies- i ain't bias! haih how many times do i have to tell you this? zee oh zee, be ready to be drooling over these candies. hahahahahaha.

look at chansung- waa, hahah i can't see buck's face.

okay, so i have to admit that this is hot. O.O

so, his ethnicity is christian. haih, -.-"

another birthday presents for you, hehh i think it'd be better if i buy a 2pm's album for your birthday. hoho, IT'S TIME FOR CHANGE.

so miss nichzee asked me yesterday- i meant two days before (look at the time, it's almost 2AM baby) she asked me to update my blog. she took my lines where she said that my blog has been covered by dusts. heh, she knows how to convince me. hohoho, earlier- i had a phone call with her and as always me almost being bias talking about AJ, hehe. but still his abs couldn't beat jay's chocolate abs. ahhh jay's abs are the best.

but still- haih because of my talk with her yesterday, she has been successfully make me KIND OF like ring ding dong. in my opinion, that song still sounds like a not song. does my sentence make sense? heeee, since i have a lot of friends who like the ring ding dong, i couldn't tell them that i hate their fav right? oh and today i happened to know that both zee and supp used to have a phone call together, and thinking of the right way to make me stop drooling of wooyoung. heh, as if i drool when i watch him with the ssanti dance. they're mean- haih they decided to make me loves taecyeon and zee said- she and supp have succeed their mission on to make me love taec. well, taec with his beast voice is hot.

MODEMAL- KOHJIMAL- haih with his sexy lips. i wouldn't dare to lie to you, don't worry about it. heh i've made an account in b2st forum- hehehehehe but, i think i need to change to a new one since i haven't gotten a mail to verify my account. lalalalalala, i think i want to have a fight with someone now. kyaa bum bum bam, i hate you!

so today, i've finished a story which was written by dearskye. entitled balloons. oh my god, this story is so damn good. really, the ending able to make me cry. how could the hero died? haih, every story that i read- the heroes must be died at the end of the story. T.T the heroine which i have forgotten her name was an assassin and- dude she's damn good in killing people without getting notice. ahhh i'm way too lazy to make a summary of that story since it will brings me to tears again. ahh, it's such a good feeling when i cried while listening to without a heart by 8eight. huhu, the proposal was damn romantic and unique. really, you should read that epic story. i think i'm going to read that story again. hehehehe- the writer is damn good. she or he able to make me curious and not wanting to leave the monitor but somehow- i did. how could i hang up zee's call?

hahahahahaha, yesterday zee invited me to see her webcam. damn, she did a lot of expressions till i've found my hard time to stop laughing like a mad woman. she even did juri's expression- ahahha damn funny. and and, she even made AJ's lips which it looked very similar. now i miss chupi!! haih, he's so cute, oh and i also miss amir and habib! let's play chi khu pang next time, hee. oh and let's see who can hold their breathes the longest- damn aty took my first place. -.-"

hahaaaaaaa(it means 7, ydk? figure it out by yourself.)haha

slippers.

so today- as usual nothing special happened today. at night, i went to adrena's open house and it was damn awkward since i was the only one who are from sevens. i was like oh yeah, hye uh hum haaa. and- haha her cousin's quite cute, i mean he looks nice and kind. i can tell that he likes kids. but soon after, i got to know what his name is but i didn't remember it- hoho since his name is quite confusing and long for me to memorize. soon after, i happened to know that even though he has got the face but he kinda acts like a girl. what i mean is he owns a lip balm , lotion or else. i do not know and i was damn shocked when i heard about this.

as soon as i got home, my mom asked whether i wanted to follow her to her friend's open house or not. and i was like, why not? the foods were delicious, satay- who doesn't like it? except the weirdo zuhur. i did not know why she doesn't like it. since i didn't know anyone from the house, it was bored and i was sleepy like hell. they were playing fireworks, the big one and the sound bum bam and i could feel the vibrations. it shocked me out. when we're walking towards our car that was when aby said that he couldn't find his shoes. the owner of the house which is my mother's friend asked the sons and nephews of hers if they're wearing aby's shoes. well, our eyes were glued to kids' legs since we believe they could fit aby's shoes. it took damned hell long and i was like- get inside and search again lah! i was sleepy at that time. and then suddenly, haha when all people gathered around aby- that was when aby told my dad that the guy who's in read has taken his shoes. haha, my dad told the guy that he's wearing aby's shoes but- in fact he didn't. the guy is actually wearing crocs. the guy who's in red that aby mentioned just now is actually an uncle. haha, an uncle who wore a red shirt didn't realize that he's wearing aby's shoes. i didn't know how it could happen. all of us cracked in laughter, that uncle's funny. his feet's different in size to compare with aby's.

crocs aren't slippers.

i was hoping for an ant.

bleeeeh my blog has been shouted and screamed my name for all day long because it has been decades since the last time i have swept the dusts away from it. but come on- i do not think blogging is something that is interesting nowadays. the main reason is because i have no idea on what to say. well for today, i do have something to say.

if you were meant to be ended up with a guy who is damnly handsome, romantic or should i say your dream guy- what would you do if you suddenly happened to know that he is your psychic? then you will get the whole situation why he always knows what you feel, what you want etc. if it happens to me in real, god damn it i did not know what i will do.

nowadays, haha what i mean is yesterday i have been rapping like an idiot. :D the reason is actually i wanted to rap all along with jay because his part in TO LUV is damn good. really. i especially like the line, for you- i will wait longer than an elephant's nose. come on, i have never heard this line before. for me, it was damn unique but ugh i find my hard time to rap along with him. his rap was damn fast, haih why do you have to be this talented? yesterday, i find my hard time in gasping for air to breathe since i have been dancing all day long as if i own my house. haha, i kept on dancing while singing because i was alone. being alone is the awesome thing in my life since i can do anything that i want.

for now- i did not know why i really really love to reply my friends' comments in soompi. they are really great and friendly. oh and i am planning to learn on how to use photoshop properly and i have an intention on having an iphone. iphone is really cool, i want an iphone similar like what james lafferty (i guess this is his name, he is nathan in one tree hill) used in one tree hill so that we could be soul mates. haha so not. one tree hill is the best! seriously! i have watched until episode 5 of season six i guess. that drama is really really good and epic.

i'm your elephant then.

pmr.

it has been decades since the last time i have updated my blog. there are too many reasons why i have not updated my blog.

1. it's pmr babe.
2. i'm busy.
3. i'm way too lazy.
4. i'm scared.
5. i have nothing to say.

two more days left, and i prayed to god to give me a bless. wish me luck, thanks.

raya

oh my oh my, it has been ages since the last time i've updated my blog. my life has been pretty hectic these days, blame the lembaran; lebaran; lembaran; geez i didn't know which one is the right word but i think it's lebaran. i've been raya-ing for five days in a row- and i'm exhausted. for this year's raya, hahahahaha i wore a black and white kebaya. for the first time, and i like the kebaya- a lot. but it tensed me up since i couldn't eat the dishes that i like since, whenever i exhaled the air out of my lung, the button will popped open and it's tiring me up. for this raya, our family's theme is black and white. haha, since mak's side call both mak and abah pak itam and mak itam, of course we have to be the black family.

this year's raya is the best. haha, the reason why i called it's the best raya is because our families went to both malacca and johor. for the first time babe, i went to johor. malacca has a lot of werid places' names. like bukit katil, bebam and so on. malacca is weird. oh and we've bought a dslr camera and it satisfies us a lot since we can take almost thousand pictures, it's so great. we took a lot of pictures. these are the pictures, but i'm way too lazy to resize the picture. :D

family in black, tkde keje.

mind us, haha we love to jump on the beach.

i found it is hard to pump the cup onto my face. they said it's freaking easy!

this little boy, haha tengok lah mcm mane die tuang air.

ahhh afif, hahaa arra nak comel je. :D

on hiatus

younger.

the fact about my pasts, buahaha many people are envy of me.

(click to enlarge)

that girl's actually me. see, i didn't tell you a lie right? i was a good friend of his in my dream, and it happens in real. that girl's actually me. my face looked different in the picture was probably because i have grown up. it was two or three years ago. look at his face, geez ungelly hair. he has a baby skin when he was younger. you wish to send him your regards? don't worry, i'll send it for you. (:

he is my favourite.

jayy*

it's yeon

so, heads up. i saw a video- a fancam of both jay and wooyoung. wooyoung said be strong in korean, which i do not understand what he's saying since i do not speak korean but most of people kept on saying, wooyoung's saying be strong to jay when jay lifts his head. omg, that was cute. haha, of course it was touching and sad to watch, but i like jay. it was stated- they were doing the last performance for incheon festival what so ever but- some of people said it wasn't the performance but what do i care? what i care is, i like jay. hohoho.

it has been ages since the last time i checked on my accounts. it has been ages since the last time i updated my story, buahaha i feel sorry for my readers. i did not know why but i do not think i have the mood to update my story and day by day, it seems like i have lost ideas to continue with them. day by day, i able to get rid the matters of jay out of my mind. my emotion has not overtaken me any longer, but i have to say that i miss him. moreover, i do not really miss him like before since i have dreamed of him- smiling at me. buahaha, the dream was good. really good, i really like that kind of dream. it was simple, yet cute. was it cute? well yeah, he was cute- not me. how on earth am i supposed to know whether i was cute in my dream or not? the vision was the same like usual, it was me who saw everything- i could not see my face. ahhh i find it is hard for me to explain the whole situation right now.

ohhhh since i have nothing to say, let me share a story about rats. ughhhh, yesterday i watched travel and living's channel- a program which i do not know what the title of the program is but what i know it was about a female traveler who traveled to india. the most disgusting thing was when she visited the temple in india, the temple which had a lot of rats. RATS. oh my god, that was so oh disgusting! mind if i tell you, it's the custom or shall i say it is a must for the visitors, occupants or so whatever to take off their shoes before they enter the temple. i was like, what the heck? take off the shoes? that means they will step on the shits that had been released by those rats. ughhh and those kids, really like to have rats running around them. i did not know why. there were these two girls, they were sitting and there was a rat sitting in between of them, and these two girls who i did not know what type of word that is suitable for me to describe both of them were smiling and proud to have a rat sitting in between of them. uuuurrr even though someone's willing to pay me a million, i would never enter the dirty temple. yuuckeeer, they said those rats are holy.

why did i keep on talking about rats? i really hate rats. jay park i miss you. muahaha, i really miss jay and i wonder, what he's doing in seattle right now. ohhh and i'm waiting for the hot blood to be uploaded, including she might come back's song. since people said there's a connection between that song and jay, i want to try to listen to it. i wonder if it will be another drugs from 2pm to me. their 2nd album kept on talking about a girl who had left them. first, they talked about a girl who did not know on how to appreciate them, even though they want to leave her, but it was hard for them to do so. second, they decided to hate her- ohhh what i mean is they totally hate her and, they wanted her to come back to their worlds and be their girls for another time? i do not understand what they want, actually. and lastly, they said she might come back. ughhh related songs compacted in an album. i was anticipating for their third albums, but i did not know whether it will come out or not since- ughhh their solo activities even get hiatus. i did not know what jyp is doing and planning right now. netizens are crazy, if they did not bring up the small matter, all of these fusses will not be happening.

edited- muahaha i have listened to that song, well that song's kinda good but i wonder, why did the title said she might come back when the lyric goes- i do not know whether you will come back. ahhh that was confusing, what i like the most- muahaha there are a lot of jay's parts. his voice is sexy. i more prefer for him to sing than rap, i didn't know why. maybe it's because of his voice is seductive? hahahaha, yeah i guess so. oh and my yeon-na, haha he raps really well. yeon-na, i love you but i love jay more than i feel towards you, i didn't know why. i miss him a lot, i am so sorry. *like you will read this huh?*

yeon-na 's

walk to the park

so yesterday, it wasn't yesterday actually. it's couple of days before, i dreamed of him. it wasn't that so oh romantic and so on- it was simple. i dreamed of him, a guy who i missed a lot for now. haha, not that much but i kinda miss him and guess what, his name is jay park or other names that you would rather to call him. my dream was simple, but too complicated and packed- to me. it was because of there were too many of artistes in my dream which i could not remember their names, what i know most of them were guy and most of them treated me very bad. it seems like they did not want to talk to me. at first, he didn't appear in my dream yet, so i wasn't that excited.

i was talking to two guys which have kinda same name, ki bum and kim bum. you're confused right? okay, fine then i was talking to them and both them kept on ignoring me so i was fed up. i got up from my seat and walked towards the kitchen, and guess what? i was a good friend of his in my dream babe. i walked towards him and i said, hey what are you doing? and, without bothering himself to turn his face towards my face, he simply smiled while saying, "i'm doing this for her." mind if i tell you, he was baking bread pudding at that time. geez, he's so cute in my dream. i asked him something but unfortunately, my sister woke my up because it's the time to sahur and i was like, nana period lah! haih, if she didn't wake me up, i might ended up laughing with him in my dream. the reason why i tried my very best to continue with my sleep and tried to continue with my dream was because of, that's the only way i've got a chance to see him smiling. i swear to god, he's smiling when he replied to my question. jay park, what are you doing right now? and do not tell me that you're baking bread pudding for her which i do not even know who she is.

bread loves pudding.

gay

you've already left, they even said you're a former- i couldn't believe that.

the cupid said sorry, should she be forgiven or not?

some of people said, yes she should be forgiven. and some of people, or i guess the majority said SO FUCKEN NOT!

i completely understand that most of them, or should i say almost all of the fans/supporters of ONEDAY are mad and upset with the heartbreaking news about the leader of 2pm. me, as one of the fans of 2pm of course are feeling upset and unhappy with this issue as for me, stating koreans are gay is not a big deal. gay itself has various meanings as people can use it for stating how happy they are, or to show the annoyance that they felt deep inside of their hearts to someone (which i believe this was the reason why jay said koreans are gay) and gay itself can means homosexual.

people who are not major and not really master in english (assume koreans are these people) will directly interpret what gay means by saying it's a bad and harsh word. for people who are common in english (assume jay and his friends are these people) will understand that gay doesn't mean that you're homosexual by interpreting it hundred percently like what most people will mean by saying this word. GAY, i can say to everyone HYE EVERYONE I'M GAY TODAY! and will people say YOU IDIOT! as a respond? by stating someone who tells people that he or she is happy on that day by using the gay word instead of happy is idiot, then you're actually reflecting the idiot word to yourself. gay has a lot of meaning. stating i am gay today is not a big deal and it's not grammatically wrong. you're the one who need to brush up your vocabulary. then, mind if i tell you who should i call idiot for now?

koreans are gay. most of people are mad like hell as jay wrote this comment to his american friends. i feel like i wanted to fly to korea and interview to all of the netizens, by what they understand about the meaning of gay. of course, what jay said was not right. the gay that he meant for now is, GAY- THE HOBO one but did they know how jay felt at that time? being a korean who was born in america and who's lack of the culture and language of his origin's. how tough will it be like when he go to korea in real? koreans are sarcastic. really. people talk in english at the subway, they'll look at them- hardly and harshly. what's their problem? really, if they're jealous because of they're not good in english then what's a big deal? attend and register to an english school and study your ass off and you can talk in english whenever and wherever you want. what's a big deal of that? koreans are gay, even though this line is not required for people to use, but for now i think this is the best line for me to use to show how koreans are being. they're gays.

some of the supporters of jay's are not willing to forgive the cupid. even though she has shown her guilt to everyone, some of them are not willing to forgive him. speaking of this matter, i do not think these people have the right whether they should forgive her or not. we have no choice, we had had to forgive her. if we ever made a decision not willing to forgive her, mind if i ask you- who are we to make a decision not to forgive her? are we god? no right, we don't have the right to make a statement that she shouldn't be forgiven. maybe what her doing was wrong, but at least she admits it. some of people didn't admit their mistakes, this girl or who i would rather call the cupid is brave as she has the courage on herself to apologize to everyone for her bad doing. people are so unbelievable these days. there are too many things happen in once. i miss jay, everyone miss jay. but don't being too over reacting. peace yo, i want to sleep.

shkjeebh

cusses

i think there's something wrong with people in korea. majority of them are not good in english and if they're jealous with a particular person who was born and have the natural skills in speaking and talking in english, what is their problem? there are still lots of mixed malaysians who seemed have no idea about the culture, language in malaysia but malaysians still did not bash these people. koreans are unbelievable, it was four years ago. four years ago, mind if i tell you how much will you get if you do the mathematical calculation 365x4 ? how many big numbers will you get?

anti-fans and netizens are unbelievable. f*cking unbelievable. i couldn't understand them. even though i am not a big fan of jay but i still did not hate him. i admit that i do not like snsd but do i ever asked or posted a comment stating that i wanted them to die, they're ugly and they shouldn't be artistes or what? anti-fans really should die. artistes have their lives too. watching the departure video of jay at incheon airport makes me feel bad. geez, with all of the screaming and crying fans- kept on saying kahjima. i did not know what to say and i could not find the right word to express my feeling. i am not saying that i feel bad for him as if he is one of my family members. i am not trying to over reacting right now, but what i know losing him will be a huge lost to everyone. i am not a member of HOTTESTS but i could know how they felt. anti-fans really should be taught on how to give a break to artistes. they're really stupid and do not have brains. past is past, what's a big deal of that? stating koreans are gay is a mistake but i do not think it's a big and huge mistake someone could ever commit. it can be forgiven and it's stupid and idiot for people who couldn't forgive jay as it's not them who will be deciding whether jay is suit and capable enough to be forgiven or not because it's all in god's hand.

geez i know this is not a right way for me to defend of him, especially when he is not a muslim. i know i know, this is not a right way for me. i know but what i know i do not want to be one of these idiots who did not know on how to use their brains that have been gifted by god properly. anti-fans are gay and all of the bad or obscene words that are existed in the dictionary. why do i have to care their feelings? they being like shits i can be one too. i know i have been cussing all the times for this update, but what can i do? i couldn't hide my disappointment to all of these stupid people. people make mistakes, and so are you. jerks are jerks and they will remain until the end, for these anti-fans i don't think jerk is the right word for them. i think idiot is the right word for them. you want to shoot me, shoot me but it won't change my hatred toward you.

shooosshh

muahaha

so- haha i was bored and i have nothing to do. i checked on soompi forums and guess what i have found? geez actually i have found these banners long time ago but i think this is the time i wanted to use it on my blog. buahahha, credit all of these superly gorgeous and hot banners to love.diary oh and these are not for take, what i mean for these are for me; these are for safiyah and these are for zuhur is actually, they are only for eyes' washing. haha, pencuci mate. entah ape lah.

these are for me; muahahahha

he is my ear's candy, haha mane ade.

i give 10 out of 10 points to you.

you know it right, he's hot. :D

these are for safiyah;

haha, this is cute. :D

no mandoo cheeks anymore. you don't have to diet you skinny!

these are for zuhur; buahaha

i know you like it, LOL just kidding.

this picture, geez i couldn't resist myself from saying that buck looks hot.

since you said that you started to like him- so, haha accept this.

the petition for jaebeom had reached its goal, and if i was not mistaken it have reached until 15,000? i don't know and koreans- geez just leave jaebeom alone. what do you want from him? koreans are gay, i don't think they want people to call them gay so please don't act like one. they always bring small matter up and burden other people. it's five years ago! chill dude. and what makes me feel koreans are mean was when they asked jaebeom to commit suicide. i was like, what the heck man! chill dude, seriously. stating koreans are gay doesn't mean you have the right to ask someone to commit suicide. who are you to ask that particular person to commit suicide? you're not god, people are so unbelievable these days. -.-" oh and i probably will go to school tomorrow, haha i didn't know why i bother myself to make a statement about my presence tomorrow. blalalalalala

Sheerrnnyy.