C for coward.

C for GOODBYE

i found it's so hard for me to do such a simple thing. and i'm totally regret for it because i might will not be able to see him again, and i was not about to mention his name, so then he will not be able to know the truth. :D *macam lah dia bace?* yes it's such a simple thing, i just have to say hello before he's gone, maybe till forever, i mean i can't meet him till forever lah. it doesn't mean that he's dying. haiyoo, it's to cruel. he's just, he's about to move to the other school, near to my dad's house in tuuttuuutt. yes i'm really really hope that i will say hey or hello or the other words that usually will be used by people to start a conversation to him so then i will be able to talk to him before he left. but what a pathetic, i was not be able to do that for a whole week! i was expecting myself to do that but i don't know why it's really hard for me to make it happen though. and he keeps saying; "kau kerek lah dekat sekolah." haiyoo, everything's my fault. -.-" and yes, i only had the courage to talk to him whenever we had a conversation through messenger and phone. it's really pathetic and sad aren't it?

today, i saw him, yes, and i didn't know whether he saw me too. then, yes i decided to say hello, then he walked passed me by with his friends and he stopped in front of me and talked to his friends then suddenly he looked at me, *i guessed so, i didn't know whether it's true or not!* we're staring each other for just a few seconds. when i was about to open my mouth and say hello, he looked away and continued talking to his friends and walked away. what a pathetic and yes, i finally knew that i can't do it. really i am, i can't do it. i found it's so hard for me to do so, "i'm really sorry and i hope you'll have a new great life in your new school soon. bye and take care ", that's the words that i was about to tell him if i could do so.

attention please:

1. 'HE' is referred to a guy that i really wanted to say sorry.
   
2. i do not have any special feelings towards him, except as a friend. (:
3. including his bestfriend too, who's one of my friend too. :D
4. thank you very much, both of you.